Joshua Mead

The Rehab Diary – Day 6 to 9

Day 6: Wednesday 27th December 2023. Woke up groggy again, however from a very good sleep so I am assuming a deep sleep, not a bad thing. After breakfast we had a group session on ‘Step 1’ – for which yesterday I was given a workbook to work on over the next week. For those […]

The Rehab Diary – Cold Turkey on Boxing Day – Day 5

Day 6: Tuesday 26th December 2023. I have given this day it’s own dedicated post, just for the ‘Cold Turkey on Boxing Day’ quote ha-ha. On the train from Exeter to Watford as we were nearing London I got up to get my suitcase from the storage area, I was stood next to a guy […]

The Rehab Diary – Day 1 to 4

Day 1: Friday 22nd December 2023. The day had finally come, since the previous day my head felt great, less fuzziness and more optimistic. After spending the last few months waking every morning and the first thing bombarding my mind being that evenings hit of Diazepam and wine to the realisation, I am about to […]

Rehab / t-minus 1 day

The big day is fast approaching….In less than 24-hours I will be at Cassiobury Court. I am packed. Since waking this morning I have had a massive sense of relief, it’s the first time in weeks that I have not felt like my temples want to explode and I must be ready because I cannot […]

(Packing List) Rehab / t-minus 5 days

Shit is starting to feel real now. In 5-days I will enter rehab for 28-days. Initially I didn’t really think about the length of time I would be away from home. After being away a couple weeks ago on holiday for just 1-week and returning, you realise just how long a month away will feel […]

Rehab / t-minus 10 days

I am sitting here at 9pm ish – I’ve taken my drugs early knowing I need to be up early for a work meeting tomorrow at 9:30am – when there is a drug controlling your life any sort of deadline or appointment becomes a challenge, particularly early ones. 9:30am isn’t even than early, but I […]

Rehab / t-minus 13 days

I cannot fathom that for the past 2-3 years I’ve been an addict, something I look back on and I never ever thought I would experience in my life. But, drug addiction is a powerful disease, it is a disease that will grab hold and control of your life, until ultimately, sends everyone who is […]